FF Let Me Love You Part 18

Hola My Lovely Readers  

Me back after my exams, relieved it all went good and now I can get back to my writing !! 

so this is the update which I woulds ay is the beginning of their love story !! 

And I hope you enjoy it, their love isnt easy but I hope to make this journey beautiful !!  

PMs will be send out only by Wednesday morning IST after I updated Our 9 months, also watch out for a new OS !! 

Love In Death Valley and My Heart Is Yours will be updated by next weekend too !!  and also a small surprise will be there as well !! 

This update is specially for Tash ( MeWantBanana ) , its her bday today , on 1st of Oct and this update is specially for her , Tash baby I love you and I wish you the very best happy bday in a lot many to come in the future as well ~!   sending u loads of love and huuggsss baby !!!  this is specially for u and I hope u like it !! 

Happy Reading To All My Sweethearts !!  and thanku so much for not forgetting me and my stories !! 

Khushi held her the violin , her eyes on Arnav,

she could see his encouraging smile,

the selfless love,

the unrelenting care,

his undying faith in their love ,

and right then, she knew it was time for her to take the first step, she would be lying to herself if she lived in denial of her feelings for Arnav, she loved the man sitting in front of her right now, watching her as though she was the only soul existing in his world and it was time to tell him that she loved him just as madly as he did !!

And the music burst forth like the waterfalls that rush down as the clouds burst , in perfect harmony with the nature, her music echoing the deep soul scorching love their  hearts felt for each other .. and Arnav listened to her mesmerized while the others were lost in the soul rendering magic of Khushi's music.

dil ne kaha chupke se yeh kya hua chupke se 

             the heart said silently, what is this, that happened silently?

kyon naye lag rahein hai yeh dharati gagan 

               why do the earth and sky suddenly seem fresh and new?

main ne puuchha to boli yeh pagali pavan 

                          when i asked this, the mad wind said,

pyaar hua chupke se yeh kya hua chupke se 

            love happened silently; what is this, that happened silently?

kyon naye lag rahein hai yeh dharati gagan 

            why do the earth and sky suddenly seem fresh and new?

main ne puuchha to boli yeh pagali pavan 

                           i asked this, and the mad wind said,

pyaar hua chupke se yeh kya hua chupke se 

              love happened silently; what is this, that happened silently?

titaliyon se suna titaliyon se suna 

                                i heard from the butterflies...

main ne qissa baag ka baag mein thi ek kali 

                 the tale of a garden; in the garden was a flower bud.

sharmili anchhuyi ek din man chala bhanvaraa aa gaya 

                 one day the shy bud was visited by a flirtatious bee.

khil uthi voh kali paaya ruup naya 

                       the bud bloomed wide, it assumed a new form.

puuchhti thi kali ki mujhe kya hua 

                           the bud asked, what happened to me?

phuul hansa chupke se pyaar hua chupke se 

                      the flower laughed quietly; love happened quietly.

main ne baadal se kabhi o main ne baadal se kabhi yeh kahaani thi suni 

               sometimes, from the clouds, i have heard this story:

parvaton se ek nadi milne saagar se chali 

                there was a mountain river, it flowed to meet the sea.

jhuumati ghuumati ho naachati dolti 

                  it twisted and staggered, oh, it danced and swayed.

kho gayi apne saagar mein jaake nadi 

                 having gotten there, the river lost itself in the ocean

dekhne pyaar ki aisi jaaduugari 

                        in order to see what sort of magician love is.

chaand khila chupke se pyaar hua chupke se 

                   the moon expanded quietly; love happened quietly.

kyon naye lag rahein hai yeh dharti gagan 

             why do the earth and sky suddenly seem fresh and new?

main ne puuchha to boli yeh pagali pavan 

                          when i asked this, the mad wind said,

pyaar hua chupke se yeh kya hua chupke se 

               love happened silently; what is this, that happened silently?

kyon naye lag rahein hai yeh dharti gagan 

              why do the earth and sky suddenly seem fresh and new?

main ne puuchha to boli yeh pagali pavan 

                          when i asked this, the mad wind said...

As she sang, her words conveyed all that she wanted Arnav to know, her life had been darkness and misery,

she had never in her wildest imagination dreamed that one day she would have a man who would love her as though she were his heartbeat,

never had she thought that she would get a family who would forget everything else at the drop of a hat and rush to her when she needed them,

Arnav had taken her into his life, into his heart , into his life with everything  that had happened in her past , her present and her future, she knew she would live her future together with Arnav.

Her eyes remained on Arnav's all throughout the song, never once leaving his lest she miss out the myriad emotions flitting through his eyes and as she finished, there was silence all around.

Khushi had eyes only for Arnav, who seemed to be at a loss for words, Alaka and Akash knew that they had been witness to Khushi's confession of her love for Arnav, she hadn't merely sung for their Bhai, she had laid her heart bare for him and for everyone else that mattered, their Bhabhi had finally acknowledged her love for their brother. On the other hand Payal didn't know what was worse, being alive to see Khushi s love story with Arnav blooming or else the fact that she could do nothing to squeeze the life out of Khushi and destroy her !!

Akash nudged Alaka and Payal and motioned for them to get up so that they could leave and give the love birds sometime alone. Payal grudgingly got up and accompanied Alaka as Akash led them away, Arnav and Khushi barely noticing the absence of their siblings.

Arnav slightly moved his hand towards Khushi and held it hesitantly, he wasn't sure what had just happened, it was too surreal to believe and he didn't want to hope too much, was it really Khushi telling him that she loved him or did she just sing the song for him without being aware about the meaning of the lyrics , his heart was thundering, not sure how to react or what to expect.

Khushi on the other hand sensed his confusion, his doubts ,when he held her hand, she returned the pressure, gripping him back harder, she didn't take her eyes off him ..

" Arnav .. I love You "

The words were a mere whisper but Arnav heard them loud and clear, her voice sending thrills down his spine, make his heart thunder inside him, it was as though they were suddenly bathed in light and happiness, A shooting star streaking across the night sky as the stars twinkled , the moon barely concealed beneath a dark cloud, the moonlight falling upon them , giving their surroundings an ethereal glow, Khushi's face glowing in dim light, only for Arnav to see..

A miracle was happening, what was once a mere dream for Khushi was really happening in her life, Arnav knew he would hear these words someday but he never fathomed that it would happen so soon !!

Arnav saw the honesty and conviction in her eyes as she confessed her feelings, it was one simple line and Arnav saw it in her eyes that he held her heart as much as she held his. He watched mesmerized as Khushi moved closer to him, her face barely inches away from his, he knew she was waiting for him to speak and he could never make her wait ..

" Khushi !!

I love You Princess, I always have and you know that.

Your music burns my soul Khushi but today you have made me the happiest man in the world.

Are you sure love ??

Do you feel its the right time ?? are you feeling rushed ??

Jaan .. you know I can wait, there is no pressure Khushi ...  "

But Arnav never got to complete the rest of his words for Khushi had placed her fingers over his lips.

She slowly took his hands in hers and raised them to her lips, she pressed her lips into the hard yet warm inside of his palms while Arnav sat still, barely breathing, the feelings of her lips was choking him in an avalanche of sensations but Khushi didn't stop, she kissed each of his fingers , and then raised her eyes to his ..

" I love you and there is no better time to tell you this than right now because this is the right time Arnav, my hearts tells me I should tell you and I did, whether you like it or not, whether you feel its right or not, what matters is that its the right time for me to tell you and I did and I have no regrets about it. " finished Khushi 

without missing a beat,

her voice unwavering,

her face the picture of sincerity and confidence in her faith.

Arnav didn't hold back any longer, he pulled her into his arms , crushing her tight in his arms, burying his face in her long tresses and his heart rejoiced when Khushi returned the hug, hugging him back equally tight, her hands caressing his back as she hugged him closer, not wanting to let go, Arnav murmured silent whispers of love just for her to hear ..

"I love You Princess, I love you with every heart beat of mine and

I promise to love you forever...

To hold you close to my heart...

To never let you go ...

To never ever leave you alone ...

Its our forever together Khushi, where it will be our world, our Vaikuntha as you named it which we build and nurture together with our love for each other. "

Khushi felt tears well up in her eyes as she heard Arnav, she knew it was just the beginning of their life together and she couldn't wait to enjoy each day to the fullest with Arnav by her side, her tears staining his shirt, he pulled her to face him, seeing the tears glistening on her cheeks ..

He slowly leaned forward and placed his lips on her cheeks, his touch feather soft, moving over her skin, Khushi sat still, absorbing and revelling in the firm touch of his lips, the care and warmth healing her unsaid wounds, he kissed her closed eyes, the tears streaming down, his pert nose, moving to her forhead, slowly moving to her ears, gently peppering her with kisses, moving over her cheeks, he gently cupped her face within his palms, their lips barely an inch away from each other, she parted her lips in anticipation, welcoming Arnav to take the lead, he saw her eyes beckoning him but he held back ..

Her confession itself was abig step for Khushi and he didn't want to overwhelm her with sensations for which she maybe unprepared but it was Arnav who was in for a surprise ..

As he slightly pulled away, he felt Khushi holding him back ... he turned to look at her ..

" Arnav I told you that I love you , in front of our parents siblings and the Gods, you are my husband and that means you have all the rights on me .

You don't need to hold back and I don't want you to "

Arnav had no words left, he didn't know how or why the Gods had blessed him with so much happiness at a time when he least expected it, to know that Khushi wanted him as much as he wanted her ..

He brought her closer to him, concealed in the darkness of the night, surrounded by the beauty of mother nature, Khushi went into his arms willingly.He moved a stary strand of her hair from her forhead as he caressed her cheeks with his thumb pads, his touch sending her into a frenzy which she had never known before,she shuddered in his arms as he brought her closer and then ever so lightly, he placed his lips over hers, meeting hers in the softest of caresses, Khushi willed herself to loose her heart and soul into the beauty of their first kiss, to just feel Arnav and nothing else, and she did, Arnav knew she wouldn't take the lead , she would need time for that and he was more than ready to give her time , today it was all about him going to tell her through their first kiss that there was nothing in the world of which she had to be scared, that she had his protection always, that he would love her with all his heart and so he did !!

As he moved his lips over hers, it was hard for him to not loose control, Arnav had been a man free of addiction all through his life but ever since Khushi's lips met his, he knew his world had changed forever, the heady passion that she made him feel for her, the surrender of his heart to Khushi, he knew he would never recover and neither did he want to recover.

Khushi had gone on to become his lifelong addiction, she was becoming the very core of existence, his beating heart !!

They kissed slowly, tentatively, the time stood still, the fates witnessing something pure and unique, Arnav & Khushi shared their first kiss, their very first, a first for both of them.

Arnav slowly caresses the seam of her lips with his tongue, willing her to open up for him and Khushi lost in his love , easily opened them but as soon as his tongue entered her mouth, Khushi's senses betrayed her, the darkness creeped in, memories that she always tried hard to stash away came up in torrents and she could do nothing but succumb to it, she wanted to fight but felt her mind shattering, images of her ill fated past flashed past !!

Arnav felt her stiffen in his arms, her entire frame breaking out into shivers, he immediately sensed what was happening !!

He broke away from the kiss and gathered her close into his arms, holding her tight as she whimpered like a broken child , he had been prepared for this, he knew this would never be easy on Khushi, physical intimacy no matter how much she loved him , would be something she would take time to enjoy without her fears taking over and Arnav had decided long back that no matter how long it took, he would one day erase it from her heart so that she could experience their love in all its shades !!

Gathered in his arms, he gently rocked her as he caressed her back, placing light kisses on her hair, he crooned to her ..

" Ssshhh Khushi, its nothing ... am here with you. You are safe in my arms and no one is going to dare to hurt you, its only me Khushi and it always will be, forget everything else Khushi and just feel my arms around you, my lips on you, forget the dratted past, I wont let it haunt our lives again, you will slowly forget it all princess !! "

Khushi shook in his arms , her eyes tearing up, her words a heartfelt cry ...

"I am scared Arnav, the memories just hit out , will I never be able to let go of this fear ??

The night when I was violated, every girl out there who is blessed has beautiful memories of the first time she was touched by the man whom she loves and here I am, cursed for life, my memories with you always haunted by my ugly past !!

Will I never be able to feel your love without this fear crushing me ??? "

She cried in his arms, her pain like a million stabbing knives at his heart but he knew he had to be strong for her ...

"Khushi those memories are brutal and we know that but those are not going to be the memories of your first touch, when I touched you now, that's your first memory, the past is when you were violated and abused, you will have your firsts Khushi, and it will all be ours together to cherish, mine too , we will explore an entire new world of love and passion together and I promise you Jaan,

there will come a day soon when you will forget everything that once tortured you , not even an iota of those hateful memories will ever exist !!

I promise you that !! "

Whispered Arnav as he gently smiled at her, willing her to take strength from his love for her , and so she did, she knew she could never trust her own strength when it was at its weakest but she placed her full trust on Arnav, all that mattered was his faith in her right now ...

"Kiss me Arnav, I want to fight this fear, I don't want the memory of our first kiss to be painfully marred by the demons of my past !!

All I want to feel is you and nothing else !! "

And that he did, her wish .. his command, he crushed her close as he slanted his lips over hers, Khushi and Arnav fighting together to push away the memories that still lingered , she opened her mouth with  a soft moan as Arnav's lips and tongue invaded hers, plundering the very depths of her soul , their lips tangling together, his teeth gently nipping on her lips, a passionate frenzy from which they both never wanted to recover , Khushi clutching his shirt tightly in her hands, her nails sinking into his back as passion took over and Arnav entered the very depths of her soul !!