FF Let Me Love You - Part 22

Hola 

okay as promised am back with an update  and yes I am taking a short break because I have my semester exams from Dec10th to Dec21st and I am busy with preps so I wont be able to update in between. plus its Christmas on 25th so I will be spending time with family but I promise I will give you an update for my stories around Xmas as soon as I get free from exams and get down to writing them down  

This update is dedicated to Mini who apparently love this story maybe even more than me myself  I am glad I met you hun, hope you like this chappy and it lives upto your expectations  

There will more for Sakshi to deal with , in this chappy she only had Arnav to deal with , very soon the entire Raizada clan will descend on her and yes its Tamasha time coming up for the Guptas very soon !  

Happy Reading !!  

Over the next couple of days , Sakshi spend her time observing Arnav and Khushi, the love between them was too evident to be ignored, the love the family gave Khushi ran deep but each time she thought about what Payal had told her, she could never understand how the Raizadas could love Khushi if they knew about her past, they must be unaware and she was determined to pull the veil off. 

Sakshi arrived at Arnav's office  the next day after learning that Arnav and Khushi were there to discuss the upcoming exhibition, she met them in the conference room, she looked directly at Khushi, 

"there is something I would like to know from you Khushi , I hope you don't mind answering it for me. " 

Arnav and Khushi exchanged a surprised look as Sakshi's hostile accusatory tone registered, why did Sakshi sound so pissed and what did Khushi have to do with it !! 

Khushi looked at her with a smile, "sure Sakshi , you know you can ask me anything you want, what is it ?? " 

Sakshi looked at her and then at Arnav who seemed to be watching her with caution, she saw him move towards Khushi and hold her hand, 

" Payal told me something about you the other day and if its true then I would say you don't deserve to be standing in front of me right now !! 

Were you gang raped Khushi ?? " 

Sakshi's question fell into a deathly silence, the very air in the room became charged, Khushi swayed slightly as Sakshi's reason for her anger towards her registered, Arnav held Khushi tight in his arms as he looked at Sakshi, furious enough to kill. 

Khushi composed herself and looked at Sakshi, "yes I was Sakshi, I was raped by a group of men, one among that was someone my parents wanted me to get married to and when I declined, they cornered me, thinking they can force me to submit to their will " 

Sakshi looked at Khushi shocked, outraged at her audacity to be in Arnav's arms while talking about her tainted past, thats when all her control snapped, 

"what the f**k Khushi !! 

So Payal was right, you aren't the innocent angel you pretend to be !! 

You are out to bring shame and disgrace to anyone who comes in contact with you, a tainted body , a lying heart, and you still have the audacity to stand next to Arnav ??? 

Move away from him you bitch , you don't deserve to even look at him !!! " 

The minute she finished speaking, Sakshi felt a stinging blow on her face that send her reeling, she stumbled back a few steps, before whipping around to see Arnav looking at her in murderous rage , Khushi trying to hold him back but he shrugged her off, Sakshi's lips were bleeding but that didnt deter her, 

"what the hell are you doing Arnav ??? 

You think I am lying ?? 

Khushi herself admitted to it and you are angry on me ?? 

for what ?? 

for saving you from being tied to a woman who has been touched by god knows how many men !! 

and then she has the guts to be with you when she knows you deserve much better ?? "

Arnav walked towards her and kicked her hard that send her reeling to a corner, his eyes had gone red in his angst, 

" I am a gentleman Sakshi and I would never dream of raising my hand on a woman but today with a woman like you, this is exactly what you deserve because your existence is an insult to all the good women in the world !! 

Khushi was raped and you are not the person who made me realise it !! 

If she was raped then I knew about it from the victim herself, from Khushi  herself !!! 

I love Khushi with every cell in my body , every nerve in my body throbs only for her and my heart belongs to her and she is not tainted in my EYES !!! 

In my eyes you are tainted and I will make sure I purify my hands and my shoes because they came in contact with a low life like you !! " 

Khushi had tears in her eyes as she held onto Arnav, Arnav held her hand in return, turning around to look at her, 

"don't stop me today princess, the world is filled with filth like this woman in front of us, heck I feel ashamed to call her a woman, she is an insult to women like you , mama and Pari who only know to love , Sakshi should know where she belongs and she should realise how high above her you are !! "

He turned towards Sakshi who lay on the floor , crippled in pain but that didnt stop her venom , 

"Oh so you love her despite knowing everything ?? 

What is it Arnav ?? 

Some kind of sacrifice you are making so that she can have a respected life ?? 

Did she beg you to take her , promising to be the ideal Raizada bahu ?? 

And you think your family will accept her once I go from here and tell them the kind of woman she is ?? 

You think you will be able to wake with your head held high once I tell the world what sort of a woman Arnav Singh Raizada has taken for his wife ?? " 

Arnav looked at Sakshi , his eyes reflecting pity for her lowly thoughts and rage at the damage she wanted to inflict on Khushi , 

 "What do you think Sakshi ?? 

That Mama & Papa doesn't know ?? 

That Akash and Alaka doesn't know ?? 

They all know Sakshi , they know what happened to Khushi and they don't care to hoots about it !! 

They love Khushi as their own daughter, Akash and Alaka loves Khushi as their Bhabhi , their sister with all the love in their heart and no force of the evil can come into that !! 

Alaka knew everything about Khushi when she bought Khushi's proposal for me, Alaka and Khushi share a connection thats beyond your understanding Sakshi but I will put it in simple lines. 

Khushi's brother Rahul  was murdered by their father in front of Khushi eyes, want to know why ?? 

Because Rahul murdered the Jay Singhania who was the vile creature whom Khushi's parents had selected for her, it was Jay and his friends who molested her and Rahul when he came to know murdered Jay !! 

Now do you want to know whats Rahul's connection to Alaka ?? 

Rahul and Alaka loved each other , and it was their dream to see Khushi and me getting married ! 

When Rahul died , Alaka was the only one who knew all the truth and since then she has been taking care of Khushi even without her knowledge, and when the right time came, she made us meet. 

And Khushi after having known how cruel life can be was hesitant to trust me, before accepting my love, she told me everything about her past, there is nothing new in what you told me Sakshi and I love Khushi and I don't care what her past is !! 

Women like you are a bane to all the women in the world, despite being a woman this is your mentality ?? 

In what way is Khushi tainted to you Sakshi ?? 

Is she tainted because a group of men forced themselves on her ?? 

Is she tainted because she was tortured in the most cruel way with no one around to hear her helpless cries ?? 

Just because of her past, you think she doesn't deserve to be loved ?? 

That she doesn't deserve to be happily married and raising her own family with her husband ??

According to you what should she do ?? 

Keep herself away from the rest of world or should she commit suicide ?? 

You think I care about the past that was so cruel to her ?? 

If there is one thing that haunts me about her past, then its the wrong doers Sakshi and I took an oath long back that I would make sure that each and everyone out there who destroyed the lives of Khushi Rahul and Pari will pay with the most cruel punishment ever !! 

I will not let the tormentors walk free  !! " 

Sakshi felt rage take over as she heard Arnav, the insult that she had got at Arnav's hands were too much to contain now , 

"Just shut up Arnav Singh Raizada !! 

I cant believe I was in love with a man like you, seriously with men like you around, women like your darling Khushi here can get anything they want !! 

And here you insulted me in front of a woman like her !! 

Sakshi doesn't let anyone get away with it after causing me pain Mr.ASR and mark my words, if you have decided to live with a girl whose history is as polluted as hers then I will make sure that the world turns around and mocks you straight on your face !! " Sakshi's dire threats fell on deaf ears as Arnav laughed at her, 

"you think I am going to shut myself in my room and throw Khushi out of my life just because you went and told the society that I am getting married to a girl who was molested ?? 

I am not ashamed of her past Sakshi, I don't care whether people turn around and laugh at me, I am in love with a girl whose heart and soul and body is as pure as anyone could imagine, girls like you Sakshi, you are the ones who are tainted, you have a tainted mind and blackened soul which prevents you from understanding the simple truth that a person's real beauty and purity lies in their heart and not in their body or in their physical attractiveness. 

Khushi & I informed our family about her past because our family is the closest to us in this earth and they had the right to know, whatever happened to her, its our privacy, a personal matter over which I don't want the society's stamp of approval. 

But if you go out there and tell the world , then do it, I will still walk with my head held high , holding Khushi's hand in mine for everyone to see, Khushi wont shy away either, she will walk with me and anyone who dares to hurt her in any manner, it will be the last thing they do !! 

And you can be assured of it because Arnav Singh Raizada is a man of his word.

Now get out of my office Sakshi and you better get out of my house before we reach there, I do not wish to have even your shadow in our lives !! 

And Sakshi ... 

I wont ask you to try and be a woman ... but I will tell you this .. Try and be HUMAN. " 

Khushi looked at Arnav with pride in her eyes, the way he had stood up for her, his each and every word, she was seeing herself in a new light, she was seeing herself through his eyes and in his eyes, she was cherished , loved and respected as his woman, as an independent strong woman who had risen above the ashes from the fire that had burned her life once. She made him look at her, her eyes conveying all her love and pride for him, she threw herself into his arms and hugged him tight as Arnav gathered her close. 

Sakshi who was too shocked at Arnav's outburst and the couple open display of love and solidarity seemed too lost to pick herself off the ground and walk away, Khushi noticed her inability to collect herself and disengaged from Arnav and walked over to Sakshi, she took Sakshi's hand and pulled her up who got up reluctantly, Khushi looked at Sakshi, and the emotion that her eyes held made sakshi recoil, 

It was Pity !! 

Khushi's words were the final nail in her coffin, 

" I don't hold you responsible for your words Sakshi, because whatever you bellowed here, its the thought process of 95% of our society, a girl when she gets molested, she becomes the prime attraction for the masses, 

The media celebrates her brave survival and courage to speak about it. 

The politicians made dramatic statements hoping to win the victim and her family's votes in the next election. 

The law makers debate on the appropriate punishment. 

The human rights activists launch campaigns that claims to be aimed at getting the girl justice but the prime intention is to boost their own images. 

The conservatives  and fundamentalists in the society launch into a debate on the moral ethics of the girl and how she was partly responsible for the crimes committed on her.

The relatives and neighbours first offer their sympathies and then they cut off ties because they don't want their daughter or sister s future of a good marriage to be affected by their alliance with a tainted girl. 

And the parents eventually locks the girl in darkness so that the society forgets the reality that they have a molested child in their house !! 

I was raped Sakshi and I pray everyday that no girl should go through what I and many other girls went through, the utter feeling of helplessness you feel when someone rips through your body while their hands muffle your screams, the terror of being alone and trapped while someone rips away your clothes and puts your modesty naked and bare, the numbness that you feel when one after the other they toy with your body and then they just leave you almost dead, torn and bleeding.

You wont know the horror of it unless you are in that position and God forbid anything should happen to you like that Sakshi.

I have suffered but I am also lucky Sakshi, I am blessed because the Gods gave me a family like Arnav's and a husband like Arnav who treats me like the queen of his heart, I got a chance to live a life knowing all the happiness that a normal girl of my age is entitled to. 

I see myself through his eyes and I know that I am loved and cherished. 

All I will ask you is this, 

Would you feel the same if something like what happened to me would happen to your daughter or sister or friend ?? 

Would you call them tainted and shun them ?? 

What if you had been the one who was harmed ?? 

Would you be able to live with it if the rest of the world shunned you for something in which you were the victim and not the culprit ?? 

Find the answers Sakshi and try to change, our lives are too short and we need to strive each second to be a better person. 

Try to rise above your faults !! 

As for me " , Khushi turned to Arnav and held out her hand which he took, his pride at her words evident, 

"come with me Arnav, Sakshi got what she deserved, but there is someone else who is behind all this mess today and thats my dear step sister, I think its time she got what she deserved." 

FF Our 9 Months - Part 41

Hola 

okay as promised am back with an update  and yes I am taking a short break because I have my semester exams from Dec10th to Dec21st and I am busy with preps so I wont be able to update in between. plus its Christmas on 25th so I will be spending time with family but I promise I will give you an update for my stories around Xmas as soon as I get free from exams and get down to writing them down  

this update is specially for the munchkin in my life, my lil princess , my adorable lil bacchi Aru  its her bday today and this update is specially coz today she was born and ever since then the world hasnt stopped going crazy with her adorable madness !!  happy bday love !! 

The last few hours had been nothing short of revelations for the Raizadas and the Guptas, the story Bauji had to tell them was nothing short of the worst shock possible, Khushi  and Payal had wept long hearing about Shyam's treachery , how he had been the cause of their father's health condition, Arnav and Akash were the ones who felt the worst, the crunching feeling of having let down their wives was killing them. But eventually the terrible day had passed, and the silver lining was that Khushi and Payal had got their Bauji back and Shyam's chapter was over once and for all.

But sleep was far away, Anjali watched Dia as she slept in her mother's arms, Varun's words were echoing deep in her heart and she knew he was right, she couldn't deny it either that she had noticed his concern for Dia and her happiness, she knew she could ignore it forever if she pleases to but one day Dia will feel the need for a father, her own father and Chottey or Akash or NK wouldn't be able to fill the space for her. 

But Anjali had faced a betrayal already, that too at the hands of someone who had once professed selfless undying love for her, she couldn't let another betrayal ruin her life, she felt the terrible need to talk to someone and that someone who could understand her was Nani , her mother figure and Anjali decided that she will have a talk with Nani soon, with these thoughts swirling in her head , she drifted off to sleep. 

Meanwhile in another room, NK and Pooja were both beaming with happiness, Pooja's proposal had shocked the hell out of him but before he could reply, they were called out by Akash regarding Bauji's revival, and so they were finally now on their own and NK was only too happy to give a yes to Pooja who by now had turned into a demure shy girl, her earlier boldness which made her propose to him vanishing into thin air and these two were unlike any other love birds, they were crazy and goofy and now they couldn't help smiling and laughing at each other, so amidst a lot of fun and lot of careless whispers, Pooja and NK found their own love nest and they were happy that they had each other !! 

Payal was tired from the day, the events of the day , the emotional stress had her completely knocked out, Akash could see that she was agitated and riled, what she need the most right now was a little time to relax and get her bearings straight. And Akash was more than the perfect husband, he was the perfect friend too, he got dinner into their room and fed her as she ate from his hands, and once she had finished, he made her get fresh and carried her to bed, gently placing her down, and in his arms she slept, as he caressed her forehead, occasionally dropping kisses over her face and hands as she slept deep. 

Varun sat in his room, lost in thought, his outburst on Anjali was totally unintentional, he had never planned to tell her all those things but somehow it had all fallen out and he had no regrets, he knew he had been harsh on her but he knew it was necessary, that was the only way for Anjali to see sense, all her life she had her family who had treated her like a delicate rose, always shielding and protecting her and Varun wanted her to be strong today, he wanted to see her make the best decision for her as well as Dia. 

He knew he would make it upto her once things got sorted between them but till then he decided to be stern on Anjali. 

Meanwhile a lone white SUV was out in the roads with just 2 people in it, the night was cold and chilly but pleasant at the same time, Khushi and Arnav had slipped out after telling Nani that they were going out for a while, Khushi had wanted to go out somewhere alone for sometime, wanting to be alone with Arnav and now they were on the road, the night calm and comforting, he held her hand in his as she stared out of the window, her entire life was getting replayed in her mind, from the time when she was a child till this very instant with her husband, all the memories in a crazy order, some of them making her smile, some of them tearing her heart apart, making her shudder in fear, occasionally a tear or two slipping out.

Arnav drove in silence , he could see the emotions that were raging through Khushi and he didnt want to stop it , he wanted to let it pass, so held her hand in his and soon he was going through the same phase, their lives from the time they can remember till date flashed in front of them and it amazed him to think how far they had come together, and so they drove on mindless of where they are going and eventually came to a stop on a cliff. 

Arnav got out and opened the door for her to come out and they stood there watching the entire city stretch out beneath them, lying calm and quite in the darkness of the night, the stars making the night sky glow, a pale shadow of the moon hovering between the clouds, they stood in silence for long , their arms wrapped around each other and after a while Khushi spoke, 

"so it really is over now ... isnt it Arnav ?? "

Arnav sighed peacefully, after months his heart was finally at peace, they were all safe, Khushi and his babies were safe and everything was looking good for his family, 

"yes princess, finally I feel it in my heart that all the bad times have gone, maybe not for long but I know its gone "

He saw Khushi looking at him curiously, her face innocent like a child and he chuckled, cupping her face in his arms and moving the stray tendrils off her forehead, 

"what I meant is that , in real life problems come and go, its like the tides in the sea, they rise and then they fall, and now they have fallen and there is a peaceful calm in our lives, am sure bad times will come again Khushi, we aren't living in Eden after all , we are in the real world but what I do now is that no matter how many problems come, with you by my side I can face them all and I wont let anything go wrong with you , our children or our families. " 

Khushi smiled a knowing smile that reached his heart, 

" I know Arnav, even before we got married, even before we fell in love, right from the time I fell into your arms at that fateful night in Sheesh Mahal, there was something in your eyes that told me I can trust you, something that drew me towards you no matter how much I resisted. 

Your anger terrified me. 

Your prejudices annoyed me. 

Your hate towards life and love confounded me. 

Your pain tugged my heartstrings. 

Your care and concern hidden beneath your anger pulled me to you like magnets. 

Your love for your family told me that you are a much better person that you let on in the world.

You claimed to hate me but despite that you were always around to the ruthless beast who would save me from any distress or calamity, all the time keeping the facade of the hate mask. 

You were a mystery and I wished to know the real you and today I know you my husband, better than anyone else could ever have known. " 

Arnav leaned forward to rest his head on hers, his fingers tracing her lips, his eyes on hers, 

"you do know me Mrs.Khushi Arnav Singh Raizada.

Oh how happy it makes me Khushi when I call your name along with mine, knowing that you belong to me. 

How much I wanted to make you mine even during the day when I pushed you away.

That night when you first fell into my arms, all I saw was a pair of innocent eyes overwhelmed in shock and fear, your lips quivering and all I wanted was to kiss the fear away from you. 

But then my mind clouded up, screaming that you were there to sabotage my fashion off, paid by my rivals even though my heart screamed your innocence. 

You matched me at every step Khushi, even that night when I broke your dori, you covered yourself by letting out your hair, a single act of defiance and I was shaken at your courage. 

No one had ever withstood my power with the courage you showed me that day. 

You weren't caught up in the power that ASR commanded, you saw me as just another human out there whom you would possible run into .

You fought with me tooth and nail but you never cowered in fear. 

Your helplessness tore at me but my mind wasnt attuned then to see the truth in others, I was always blinded by hate, after all the betrayal and lies I dealt with as a child , I couldn't bring myself to trust anyone except my family.

But you broke through all the walls I had built, I was drawn to you like a moth to a flame but my mind repelled you equally, I wanted to be near you , I craved to feel the same love and warmth that others got from you but at the same time I wanted to prove to myself that you are just as bad as the rest of the world. 

Love and hate were on conflict inside me Khushi and I struggled to live with it, you were the symbol of my inner turmoil. 

You were like the force of the nature jolting me awake, making me come face to face with reality, telling me that the world isnt always bad, that love did exist, you were assaulting me with the every emotions that I had tried so hard to deny myself !! 

It was a long battle Khushi, a struggle where I made you suffer though I wanted to suffer in your pain along with you, absorb all your anguish even though it was me who made you cry.

And today we are here, all the evil erased without a trace, its our world now Khushi, our small haven and its perfect now. 

I love you Khushi , my hearts beats only for you. " 

And they hugged each other, feeling each other's touch, they didnt feel the need to waste words anymore, their life had passed the cross-roads and now a new happy ever after was waiting for them, testing times could come and go but they knew they had each other forever. 

Arnav took Khushi and made her sit in the backseat of the car and got in with her, for some reason neither of them wanted to go back home just yet, they were enjoying the silence of the night, the feeling of being all on their own while the rest of the world around them slept, he sat there staring into her eyes for long , and then he was kissing her , softly at first, gradually increasing the pace, gentle yet hard , demanding and giving, the kiss just like any other they have shared yet it felt all new. 

And they sat there, talking like any other normal couple, carefree and happy, not worrying about any more problems, they talked long, occasionally Khushi would drift off to sleep and Arnav would kiss her awake, but as she slept he felt their babies moving around inside her, kicking away to glory and Arnav couldn't help but chuckle at the thought that their kids would be such annoying tykes who would make Khushi run a mile, just like him !! 

His heart swelling with love and pride for the woman who could love him and their children endless, her face glowing with happiness even in her sleep. 

The night waned , they hadn't slept a proper sleep and neither wanted it, they had a spend a blissful night watching the stars shine bright, then turning wane as the early morning sky took over, happily enjoying their babies stomping around inside Khushi, occasionally stealing kisses from each other, indulging each other in passionate caresses, never being able to get enough, need to feel each other skin to skin. 

And now they watched with a content smile on their faces at the breaking dawn, the early rays slowly filling up and spreading light, as the sun rose bright and happy, a symbol of a new day and new start to their lives bringing with it only happiness.

FF Our 9 Months - Part 40

I know its a quite an early update as per my standards but I have my university exams from Dec 10th to Dec 21st and I want to give you all as many updates as possible before I take the mini break.

I hope you all enjoy this extra long update ! 

Happy Reading !  

It was evening and the Raizadas & Guptas were all bact at the guest house, the ordeal of their lives was over , the fear that gripped their hearts had been taken care of, Shyam Manohar Jha had been driven insane and right now he was being escorted into a place from there would be no return, Arnav Singh Raizada had pulled all the right strings, he had put to use all his might as the ASR to make sure that the evil in their lives would be kept as far away as possible and if Mr.Jha tried to make his escape, then he would be shot dead.

And right now they had all retired to their rooms, each one of them needing the solace and comfort of their special ones.

Anjali held Dia close in her arms as she sat lost in her thoughts, the memories of her marriage to Shyam, his constant tokens of alleged love for her, his betrayal coming to the fore, his attempt to make his way back into their lives to the point today when she had seen her ex husband deny her and their daughter even in his insanity, proclaiming undying obsession and need for the girl who truly belonged to her brother.

But what was shocking to Varun who was watching Anjali from far was that she hadn't shed a single tear though she was lost in her thoughts, it was a woman who was pondering over the tragedies that she and her family had to suffer, there was no pain or loss of love reflected anymore for Shyam Manohar Jha, and Anjali herself was on the same thoughts, the moment had come when Anjali was Anjali Singh Raizada and ready to move on with her life.

As he watched , Anjali cradled Dia closer into her arms, cradling her little cheeks in her palms, looking into her daughter's eyes which were full of innocence and love for her mother,

"Dia , I cannot say that I am sorry you will grow up not knowing your father. Because its better to grow up fatherless than have a father like Shyam Manohar Jha.

You may come across situations in your life when you will wish that you had him standing beside you , holding your hand, his warmth as your protection but truth is that Shyam never loved you. He wished you dead even before you were born.

You have your Mamma who will try to the best of her abilities to fulfil all the duties of a mother and a father. And I know I can count on your Arnav Mamu Akash and NK to be the best father figures in your life, Payal loves you like her own child and Khushi Bhabhi ... sometimes I feel that she has loved you much more than even I have ever loved you.

You have a family who treats you like a princess Dia and you will never miss your father, not as long as we are alive ... "

" What if Dia needs someone whom she needs to call Papa ??

What if I tell you that I cant live without Dia anymore ?? "

Anjali's head whipped around to the source of the voice and she was shocked to see Varun standing in the doorway, his words taking time to register. Shock and an unknown fear crept into Anjali's heart, Varun was staking a claim on Dia as though she belonged to him as well and Anjali wasn't sure if she was ready to share her daughter's life with anyone else other than her family.

" Varun what are you trying to tell me ?? " asked Anjali as she rose to face him.

Varun took measured steps towards Anjali, he knew the words had come out of mouth without his own volition and he didn't want to scare her away but she had to know the truth,

" what do you think I meant Anjali ??

I think all these days that I have spend with you all , you of all the people should know that I love Dia.

I am not offering Dia a life and my name out of sympathy or because of what we saw today. What I saw today helped me realise that even if Shyam Manohar Jha had indeed mended his ways, even then I wouldn't let him come near you or Dia because you both belong to me, he may have been your husband but he never knew how precious you both are and his time was anyways gone, you have given him enough chances to attain for his sins. "

Anjali took a step backwards , she wasnt ready for any of it, she couldn't deny Varun's affection to Dia but she also couldn't let him have a stake on Dia ,

" Stop it Varun !

What do you think of yourself huh ??

You think you can just walk in and tell me that you love Dia and you have your rights and I will let you claim her ??

You think I will trust any man close enough to break my heart again ??

Dia has her family and she doesn't need a father.

I have 3 brothers who are ready to play her father figures and thats all it is that she needs.

After everything Shyam did, you think am going to let someone come close enough to her to toy with her feelings ?? "

Varun felt anger coursing through his veins hearing Anjali compare him to Shyam, fine if she needed it on her face then thats how he would give it to her !!

" really Anjali, you think am like your ex-husband who is out to break your heart ??

You think Dia is some sort of time pass for me ??

And whats all this nonsense abt Dia having Arnav NK and Akash to fill into the shoes of her father ??

I agree and trust to the fact that they love her as their own but can they give Dia their name ??

Can Dia be Dia Arnav Singh Raizada ??

Can Dia be Dia Akash Singh Raizada ??

Can Dia take on the security of NK's name ??

Arnav and Akash have their own families and even NK will have a family soon. They have their own kids, cant you see how much Arnav already loves his babies ??

I will never doubt his love for Dia but you need to accept the harsh truth Anjali,

Dia can never take Arnav Akash or NK with her to the world and tell it out they are her father because its not the truth.

She will always be Dia , your daughter , your ex-husband's blood and if you don't wish to give her his name , I understand. She will have your name and am sure as a single mother you will give her all the happiness in the world except one ... THE LOVE OF A FATHER.

Anjali try as much as you want but what a father does , only a father can do. What a mother does , only a mother can do, its the law of nature and Dia needs a father and if Gods are giving you a chance to let Dia know a father's love then why are you denying her ??

I love Dia as though she were my own daughter, I know its difficult for you to trust another man but you can take all the time you want Anjali, there is no rush.

We can start off as friends, because it isnt just Dia I want, I want her mother too, I want you in my life Anjali Singh Raizada because I love you !!

And I want us to be a family together, you me and Dia and maybe if you feel okay I want us to have children together who will have Dia as their big sister !

Does that make sense Anjali ??

I am offering you and Dia .. my heart , my love , my soul , my name , everything that I have not because you need it but because I truly and deeply am in love with both of you and I want to bring you both all the happiness in the world, I want to lay the world at your feet like how Arnav does for Khushi, like how Akash does for Payal.

Think about it Anjali and then let me know. "

Varun leaned forward and kissed Dia on her cheeks who smiled at him widely and then he left the room leaving Anjali stunned , what she heard making her world swirl.

Meanwhile in another room, Akash was consoling Payal whose tears were endless, it wasnt often that she broke down, she had been Khushi's rock all through her life, she had seen her sister's pain right from the time she had lost her parents and today with the end of the chapter of Shyam, the relief that was coursing through her was immense and she wanted to let it out, tell everything to her one true soulmate,

" It was always Khushi ... it was she who bore all the pain Akash.

First it was the death of her parents at an age when she barely knew what it was to loose a person at the hands of death.

I have held her in my arms through the nights and days as she tried to accept the truth.

I have seen her wake up screaming out for her parents.

Thats how she grew up and then she met Arnav Bhai.

She fell in love with him but Shyam betrayed her , he had her caught in his web of lies and she kept quiet only to save both our families, she even withstood her husband's hate for the sake of our marriage, Di's happiness, the youngest amongst us all and she faced it all alone.

 And then she saved her husband's life , She started a new life with him and at a time in her life when the woman should be happiest, the evil lurked back.

Shyam .. Lavanya.

These last few months, my sister had to live in the fear of losing her husband and her children.

She doesn't deserve this Akash , she never deserved all this pain !!

I was never the strong one , Khushi was the one who stood strong, the one who protected us all and I will be damned if anything causes pain to her ever again ! "

Akash was at a loss for words, everything that Payal said was true, Khushi was the fighter and thinking back of all the disasters that struck their family, his heart bled along with hers but with it came one realisation ,

He raised Payal to look at him, gently he wiped away all her tears before kissing her lightly on her lips,

" You are right Payal, Khushi has seen and suffered a lot for us, she is a born fighter and now I can clearly see why the Gods made Khushi and Bhai meet.

They are made for each other Payal, cant you see that ??

They were born for each other.

Both of them, withstood all the pain in the world for the sake of their families, like how you spoke about Khushi, the same way Bhai has shouldered the responsibility of his family since a very young age.

After his parent's death, Bhai worked day and night to build up AR.

Whatever AR is today its the fruit of Bhai's hardwork, he supported me, he supported Di , he made sure that none of us would ever want anything as long as he is around for us.

And now they have each other Payal.

They are each other's biggest strengths, their love for each other will help them weather out any storm that threatens to come their way.

And they have their family Payal, they have us to always be there to face the evil standing side by side with them.

And I assure you Payal, they have taken care of us lifelong, its time we let them enjoy their lives a bit while we watch out for them and thats exactly what we will do now "

Meanwhile Pooja had her arms tight around NK as he let his tears fall for once and for all. NK had always been the softie, the baby of the family and it was rare to see his tears because he had a family who fawned all over him since the day he had been born

He may have never been a Raizada by name but he was very much one among them in all its senses.

NK was speaking as he cried in her arms,

" you don't know the relief I feel today Pooja. Khushi Bhabhi and Arnav Bhai are finally free of all evil. I have seen them suffer because of Shyam from the day we all came to know the truth.

Bhabhi went out of her way to bring back Bhai alive and safe from Shyam , that bas***d tried everything in his arsenal to try and turn the family against Khushi Bhabhi but Bhai stood firm with her.

You know whats funny Pooja, before Bhai got married to her, I did hold a fancy for Bhabhi, there was something about her that made me want to protect her from all possible harm. And I can proudly say that I am her best friend before being her Devar.

But when I realised that she loved Bhai, I understood, it didn't come as a shock to me though because it was clearly visible for everyone to see, they always had the spark that could ignite a volcano.

Always fighting like Tom & Jerry, looking for reasons to hate each other yet ending up in each other's arms at every chance they got !!

Their love story is divine Pooja and today after a long time this house is finally getting its peace back.

All these months I have watched Bhai live in the fear of losing Bhabhi and today finally the evil has been taken care of. "

Pooja heard everything silently, she could feel the love NK had for Arnav & Khushi, and it didn't surprise her but she definitely had something to tell him that she knew would shock him, she helped him sit straight and slowly leaned in closer to lay her head over his heart, his arms willingly came to enclose her as though it were only natural but it was her words that stunned him,

" the way Arnav Bhai loves Khushi Bhabhi , can you love me ?? "

While the shocks rippled through the various rooms in their home, Arnav and Khushi were lost in the comfort and peace of being in each other's arms, Arnav had Khushi gently confined in his arms, her head resting over his heart, they didn't words anymore, they didn't feel the need to discuss anything now, their hearts spoke, the gently caresses conveyed the rush of hot blood in their veins, the hearts beating in unison, the stolen kisses speaking volumes of their love and passion.

Arnav had one hand resting possessively over her belly while Khushi held Arnav tighter, a few tears were shed over all the pain in their life, a couple of laughs and smiles at the joys waiting for them.

And most of all the peace and comfort knowing that Shyam Manohar Jha was finally over and out from their lives.

Khushi knew the memories would haunt her, she knew the darkness would never be erased, that was the reality of memories, it couldn't be forgotten, it lingered on the outskirts rearing its head at her weakest thoughts but she also knew that Arnav would be there to kiss them away with his love and she knew that even though life wasnt a bed of roses, her life with Arnav was a bed of roses with thorns lingering around and she knew they had each other to take away the thorns.

She looked up at Arnav who looked back at her, his eyes reflecting nothing but pure unadulterated love for her, echoing and mirroring what he saw in her eyes, their faith and trust on each other binding and complete.

"Arnav "

" Khushi "

They both looked at each other and laughed, at their own uncanny precision timing.

"You go first "

"You go ahead "

Once again they laughed and decided to give it a third shot, their words shocking one another,

"Di and Varun have feelings for each other "

"NK and Pooja like each other "

And this time they both burst out laughing !!

The Raizadas & Gupta elders were all in one room and they were witnessing a miracle,

Bauji had spoken after ages and it was one line ,

"I failed as a father"

FF Let Me Love You - Part 21

This was unexpected on my part coz I was planning to update My Heart Is Yours today but then I felt like writing down LMLY out of the blue !  

Am sure many of you will want to rip Payal by the end of it and maybe Sakshi too , but everything thats going to happen is for a reason !  

Happy Reading !  

Arnav who was holding her in his arms jolted back as he heard her, pulling her up with him, he could see the fears and insecurities creeping back in, and he would be damned if he let Khushi blame herself for Sakshi's love loss !!

Arnav twirled her straight into the tight confines of his arms, locking her against him, her eyes locked with his,

" Listen to me Princess, Sakshi proposed long before I met you or saw your picture, back then all I knew was that there is a girl out there who is made for me and when I saw her, I would know.

Sakshi and I have known each other for a long time, our families are friends, we have spend a lot of time around each other but if I know one thing for sure, then it is that I have never harboured any feelings for her, forget feelings Khushi I didn't even feel attracted to her.

Am sure our families would never oppose it if I chose Sakshi, but truth is I never saw her in that light "

Khushi listened to him, his words slowly sinking in , she caught her breath when he pulled her closer so that their lips were caressing each other, his breath falling on her heavier yet feather light,

"She isnt the one who set my heart racing Khushi.

She isnt the one who made the blood turn hot in my veins.

She isnt the one whom I see spending cold nights curled under the same blanket.

She isnt the one I want to take around the world , holding hands tight as I see the many wonders the universe holds.

She isnt the one I want to grow old with.

She isnt the one whom I dream raising a family with.

The woman who makes me want all this and much more is here in this room, in my arms and she is looking at me right now, her lips are caressing mine as I speak.

Its you who I crave for with every breath of mine Khushi Arnav Singh Raizada and this heart has always waited just for you. "

If there were any doubts left in Khushi, then it was gone. The conviction in Arnav's voice as he spoke his heart could be felt like heavy footfalls in her heart and Khushi knew she would be damned if she thought that any other woman could have her place in his heart and so to the shocked surprise of Arnav, she crushed her lips onto his, taking him along with her into a kiss of mind numbing passionate intensity.

Momentarily stunned , but quickly recovering, Arnav pulled her back onto the bed as he rolled her over and let the madness take over, everything else could wait but he couldn't allow Khushi to live in the fear that their love for each other came at the price of other's happiness because it wasnt true. It wasnt humanly possible to keep everyone happy, everyone had a life to live and its not necessary that you get everything that you want. Sakshi may have loved him but he didn't and he was sure that there wasnt any actions from his side that encouraged her feelings towards him, he had always been a reserved man when it came to affections, before Khushi the only people he had showered his love on were his family and few couple of friends and there had been no one special in his life before her.

Sakshi chose to love him and if she had a broken heart today, even though she had his sympathy, he couldn't help her for something in which he had no role to play and the sooner she accepts the truth, the  better for her.

Pulling his thoughts back, he let Khushi kiss him, today he wasnt taking the lead because more than her, it was him who needed the assurance that she believed in their love and Khushi understood that. Her tongue probed and scorched his soul as she wrapped herself around him, he moaned as her lips moved from his face down to his throat while her hands slipped beneath his shirt, his hands curling around her waist. Minutes later they broke apart from the dire need to breathe, catching their breath, their heartbeats racing, their foreheads resting on each other,

Khushi was blushing a brilliant shade of crimson as she remembered her own passion while Arnav watched her amused, he flicked her nose lightly, whispering ..

"didn't know my princess is quite the sensual minx in bed !! "

Khushi overcome with embarrassment buried herself into the crook of his neck as he held her close,

" thats how I want you to be with me Khushi, free as a bird. You have all the rights on me ... heck only you have rights on Arnav Singh Raizada and you can do anything to me as you please, am all yours !! "

Her voice came out as a muffled whisper,

" And am all yours Arnav. "

Just then they were interrupted by a knock on the door, Khushi got up and straightened her clothes while Arnav just lay on the bed. He knew it had to be Akash or Alaka coming to call them and knew his siblings would anyway assume the worst so he had no qualms, Khushi gave him a mortified look as she headed towards the door but as she opened it she cringed, it wasnt Pari or Akash, it was Sakshi.

Sakshi's gaze travelled towards Arnav who was lying on the bed, the sheets crumpled, his hair tousled, shirt messed and untucked, it didn't take a lot of brains to guess what must have transpired behind the closed doors, she saw Khushi smiling at her, her eyes apologetic, meanwhile Arnav who saw Sakshi at the door didnt make a move to change the position, he knew it was hard on her but he wanted her to know the reality.

Khushi took her hand and led her in,

"come in Sakshi , did you want something ?? "

Sakshi smiled at her in return,

"actually its nothing Khushi, aunty and uncle send me up to call you, thing is Alaka and Akash were eating and I had already finished mine so they asked me to call you both down. "

Arnav sat up , "5 minutes girls, I am coming " saying so he scooted off to the washroom while winking at Khushi.

Khushi turned to Sakshi and held her hands, she wanted to come clean with her rather than pretend like she didnt know anything, she felt it would be better for all of them and also for Sakshi's stay at their place,

" Sakshi am really sorry for the pain am causing you right now. And I hope you forgive us someday. I will always pray that you find true happiness and love in your life. "

Sakshi looked at her shocked, "you know ?? "

"yes she knows " came a voice from behind Khushi, Arnav had come out and he was sitting next to Khushi as he faced Sakshi,

"we are sorry Sakshi , we know this visit isnt easy on you and I can figure out why you must have come down, and yes I told Khushi everything because between me and her, there are no secrets, anything about me, I would want her to hear about it from myself rather than a third person and I felt she had the right to know.

I hope you can forgive us and forget whatever reasons it may be that is causing you pain now.

Like how Khushi said, I hope you find true happiness and love someday soon "

Sakshi looked at them both who looked genuinely sorry for her , she knew she could be honest with them as well,

" Arnav , Khushi .. I am glad I don't have to pretend anymore. When I heard of Arnav's engagement I thought it was an arranged marriage where Arnav must have said yes so that his family is happy. I came down hoping to change his mind.

I thought I still stood a chance in having him.

Ever since the time I knew what is love, I have dreamt of belonging to Arnav, to this family. Always groomed myself in a way suited for this family thinking and hoping that Arnav would someday love me.

But now I know that love doesn't happen through plans. It is written down by the fates and it will happen as destined.

The minute I saw you Khushi, I knew there wasnt any hope left. The love you both share, it can be seen by anyone.

I have seen Arnav for so long and today he is a changed man , he is a man in love , a man in love with you and every action of his screams that, his eyes it feels to me can only see you.

And then when I saw how much Uncle Aunty Akash and Alaka loves you, I knew you were born for this family.

I am in pain , I admit that but I know this phase will pass and like you both said, Gods must have planned something for me as well, someone who will love me too.

You don't have anything to apologise for , both of you and you have my prayers and best wishes. "

Arnav could feel Khushi's tremors as she heard Sakshi speak. He knew Khushi was a girl who absorbed all the pain around her, her fingers clenched tightly into his and the next thing he saw her was hugging Sakshi who seem to need it badly.

They broke apart after a few minutes and Arnav took Khushi's hand in his as the trio walked down.

Rest of the day went quickly with all of them having a good time together, Sakshi did have a difficult time but Khushi stayed by her side, doing everything possible so that she doesn't feel left out and Sakshi revelled in her company, she found herself getting lost in the infectious energy that Khushi had around her.

Later in the evening Akash decided that all of them, the young ones of the house could go out for dinner, he also decided to call Payal along, any opportunity that he got to torture Payal, he didnt like to spare it and even Alaka agreed to his plan.

Soon the Raizadas were out at a diners with Sakshi and Payal who were introduced to each other. Sakshi could feel the animosity that Payal seemed to nurse at her own sister. But Payal could sense more. She could see the pain in Sakshi's eyes , the hurt evident though she tried her best to mask it and soon she found out that it was directed at her sister who looked lost in her fiance. Payal knew she had to have a little fun, when Arnav and Khushi decided to leave to go on a walk, and Akash and Alaka got up to check out something, Payal turned to Sakshi,

"what is it Sakshi ??

What is hurting you so much ??

You are looking at my sister and I can see that you aren't happy at what you are seeing !! "

Sakshi turned to look at Payal,

" you are right Payal, seeing your sister and Arnav together does cause me pain but thats not your problem, its not their fault either, the pain is mine and don't worry I will deal with it !! "

Payal chuckled at Sakshi's defensive reply,

"deal with all you want honey, I could care less.

As far as I know my sister has been an avalanche in everyone's lives, uprooting it with her arrival.

And I care to hoots about her. I loved Arnav and I wanted him for myself but Arnav wanted my good for nothing step sister. God knows what he sees in her !!

And going by the looks of it, you seem to have been in love with for quite a while, what happened ??

Did he reject you as well ??

Think about it Sakshi, do you want to loose out Arnav to a girl who is so badly tainted that she doesn't even deserve to be loved ??

I can help you Sakshi, I can tell you things about Khushi which am sure Arnav doesn't even know because if he knew then he would think twice before even touching her !!

Want to hear it honey ?? who knows Sakshi .. maybe Arnav will abandon once he knows that he is in love with a filthy tainted woman and then maybe you can have him !! "

Payal's words fell like hammer blows on Sakshi, her curiosity perking up, and Payal looked delighted, so what if she couldn't have Arnav, she would make sure that Khushi didnt have him either !!

Sakshi locked eyes with Payal,

"if you have something to tell me, then speak it out without creating smokes.

True I love Arnav but I respect Khushi too but if Khushi is cheating Arnav then I wont let her get away with it !!

Tell me Payal, why did you call Khushi tainted ?? "

Whatever transpired between them next, made Sakshi go beserk, she knew Samar Uncle and Sayali Aunty would never want a girl who was damaged for Arnav.

She knew Arnav wouldn't want a girl who had been tarnished. And as far as she could see , she couldn't fathom that Arnav was with Khushi despite knowing her past. She knew Khushi had a lot of answering to do and she would make sure that Arnav knew the real face of the girl he was so madly in love with !!