Wednesday 4 December 2013

FF Let Me Love You - Part 22



Hola Hug

okay as promised am back with an update Wink and yes I am taking a short break because I have my semester exams from Dec10th to Dec21st and I am busy with preps so I wont be able to update in between. plus its Christmas on 25th so I will be spending time with family but I promise I will give you an update for my stories around Xmas as soon as I get free from exams and get down to writing them down Smile 

This update is dedicated to Mini who apparently love this story maybe even more than me myself Heart I am glad I met you hun, hope you like this chappy and it lives upto your expectations Wink 

There will more for Sakshi to deal with , in this chappy she only had Arnav to deal with , very soon the entire Raizada clan will descend on her and yes its Tamasha time coming up for the Guptas very soon ! Wink 

Happy Reading !! Smile 





Over the next couple of days , Sakshi spend her time observing Arnav and Khushi, the love between them was too evident to be ignored, the love the family gave Khushi ran deep but each time she thought about what Payal had told her, she could never understand how the Raizadas could love Khushi if they knew about her past, they must be unaware and she was determined to pull the veil off. 
Sakshi arrived at Arnav's office  the next day after learning that Arnav and Khushi were there to discuss the upcoming exhibition, she met them in the conference room, she looked directly at Khushi, 
"there is something I would like to know from you Khushi , I hope you don't mind answering it for me. " 
Arnav and Khushi exchanged a surprised look as Sakshi's hostile accusatory tone registered, why did Sakshi sound so pissed and what did Khushi have to do with it !! 
Khushi looked at her with a smile, "sure Sakshi , you know you can ask me anything you want, what is it ?? " 
Sakshi looked at her and then at Arnav who seemed to be watching her with caution, she saw him move towards Khushi and hold her hand, 
" Payal told me something about you the other day and if its true then I would say you don't deserve to be standing in front of me right now !! 
Were you gang raped Khushi ?? " 
Sakshi's question fell into a deathly silence, the very air in the room became charged, Khushi swayed slightly as Sakshi's reason for her anger towards her registered, Arnav held Khushi tight in his arms as he looked at Sakshi, furious enough to kill. 
Khushi composed herself and looked at Sakshi, "yes I was Sakshi, I was raped by a group of men, one among that was someone my parents wanted me to get married to and when I declined, they cornered me, thinking they can force me to submit to their will " 
Sakshi looked at Khushi shocked, outraged at her audacity to be in Arnav's arms while talking about her tainted past, thats when all her control snapped, 
"what the f**k Khushi !! 
So Payal was right, you aren't the innocent angel you pretend to be !! 
You are out to bring shame and disgrace to anyone who comes in contact with you, a tainted body , a lying heart, and you still have the audacity to stand next to Arnav ??? 
Move away from him you bitch , you don't deserve to even look at him !!! " 
The minute she finished speaking, Sakshi felt a stinging blow on her face that send her reeling, she stumbled back a few steps, before whipping around to see Arnav looking at her in murderous rage , Khushi trying to hold him back but he shrugged her off, Sakshi's lips were bleeding but that didnt deter her, 
"what the hell are you doing Arnav ??? 
You think I am lying ?? 
Khushi herself admitted to it and you are angry on me ?? 
for what ?? 
for saving you from being tied to a woman who has been touched by god knows how many men !! 
and then she has the guts to be with you when she knows you deserve much better ?? "
Arnav walked towards her and kicked her hard that send her reeling to a corner, his eyes had gone red in his angst, 
" I am a gentleman Sakshi and I would never dream of raising my hand on a woman but today with a woman like you, this is exactly what you deserve because your existence is an insult to all the good women in the world !! 
Khushi was raped and you are not the person who made me realise it !! 
If she was raped then I knew about it from the victim herself, from Khushi  herself !!! 
I love Khushi with every cell in my body , every nerve in my body throbs only for her and my heart belongs to her and she is not tainted in my EYES !!! 
In my eyes you are tainted and I will make sure I purify my hands and my shoes because they came in contact with a low life like you !! " 
Khushi had tears in her eyes as she held onto Arnav, Arnav held her hand in return, turning around to look at her, 
"don't stop me today princess, the world is filled with filth like this woman in front of us, heck I feel ashamed to call her a woman, she is an insult to women like you , mama and Pari who only know to love , Sakshi should know where she belongs and she should realise how high above her you are !! "
He turned towards Sakshi who lay on the floor , crippled in pain but that didnt stop her venom , 
"Oh so you love her despite knowing everything ?? 
What is it Arnav ?? 
Some kind of sacrifice you are making so that she can have a respected life ?? 
Did she beg you to take her , promising to be the ideal Raizada bahu ?? 
And you think your family will accept her once I go from here and tell them the kind of woman she is ?? 
You think you will be able to wake with your head held high once I tell the world what sort of a woman Arnav Singh Raizada has taken for his wife ?? " 
Arnav looked at Sakshi , his eyes reflecting pity for her lowly thoughts and rage at the damage she wanted to inflict on Khushi , 
 "What do you think Sakshi ?? 
That Mama & Papa doesn't know ?? 
That Akash and Alaka doesn't know ?? 
They all know Sakshi , they know what happened to Khushi and they don't care to hoots about it !! 
They love Khushi as their own daughter, Akash and Alaka loves Khushi as their Bhabhi , their sister with all the love in their heart and no force of the evil can come into that !! 
Alaka knew everything about Khushi when she bought Khushi's proposal for me, Alaka and Khushi share a connection thats beyond your understanding Sakshi but I will put it in simple lines. 
Khushi's brother Rahul  was murdered by their father in front of Khushi eyes, want to know why ?? 
Because Rahul murdered the Jay Singhania who was the vile creature whom Khushi's parents had selected for her, it was Jay and his friends who molested her and Rahul when he came to know murdered Jay !! 
Now do you want to know whats Rahul's connection to Alaka ?? 
Rahul and Alaka loved each other , and it was their dream to see Khushi and me getting married ! 
When Rahul died , Alaka was the only one who knew all the truth and since then she has been taking care of Khushi even without her knowledge, and when the right time came, she made us meet. 
And Khushi after having known how cruel life can be was hesitant to trust me, before accepting my love, she told me everything about her past, there is nothing new in what you told me Sakshi and I love Khushi and I don't care what her past is !! 
Women like you are a bane to all the women in the world, despite being a woman this is your mentality ?? 
In what way is Khushi tainted to you Sakshi ?? 
Is she tainted because a group of men forced themselves on her ?? 
Is she tainted because she was tortured in the most cruel way with no one around to hear her helpless cries ?? 
Just because of her past, you think she doesn't deserve to be loved ?? 
That she doesn't deserve to be happily married and raising her own family with her husband ??
According to you what should she do ?? 
Keep herself away from the rest of world or should she commit suicide ?? 
You think I care about the past that was so cruel to her ?? 
If there is one thing that haunts me about her past, then its the wrong doers Sakshi and I took an oath long back that I would make sure that each and everyone out there who destroyed the lives of Khushi Rahul and Pari will pay with the most cruel punishment ever !! 
I will not let the tormentors walk free  !! " 
Sakshi felt rage take over as she heard Arnav, the insult that she had got at Arnav's hands were too much to contain now , 
"Just shut up Arnav Singh Raizada !! 
I cant believe I was in love with a man like you, seriously with men like you around, women like your darling Khushi here can get anything they want !! 
And here you insulted me in front of a woman like her !! 
Sakshi doesn't let anyone get away with it after causing me pain Mr.ASR and mark my words, if you have decided to live with a girl whose history is as polluted as hers then I will make sure that the world turns around and mocks you straight on your face !! " Sakshi's dire threats fell on deaf ears as Arnav laughed at her, 
"you think I am going to shut myself in my room and throw Khushi out of my life just because you went and told the society that I am getting married to a girl who was molested ?? 
I am not ashamed of her past Sakshi, I don't care whether people turn around and laugh at me, I am in love with a girl whose heart and soul and body is as pure as anyone could imagine, girls like you Sakshi, you are the ones who are tainted, you have a tainted mind and blackened soul which prevents you from understanding the simple truth that a person's real beauty and purity lies in their heart and not in their body or in their physical attractiveness. 
Khushi & I informed our family about her past because our family is the closest to us in this earth and they had the right to know, whatever happened to her, its our privacy, a personal matter over which I don't want the society's stamp of approval. 
But if you go out there and tell the world , then do it, I will still walk with my head held high , holding Khushi's hand in mine for everyone to see, Khushi wont shy away either, she will walk with me and anyone who dares to hurt her in any manner, it will be the last thing they do !! 
And you can be assured of it because Arnav Singh Raizada is a man of his word.
Now get out of my office Sakshi and you better get out of my house before we reach there, I do not wish to have even your shadow in our lives !! 
And Sakshi ... 
I wont ask you to try and be a woman ... but I will tell you this .. Try and be HUMAN. " 
Khushi looked at Arnav with pride in her eyes, the way he had stood up for her, his each and every word, she was seeing herself in a new light, she was seeing herself through his eyes and in his eyes, she was cherished , loved and respected as his woman, as an independent strong woman who had risen above the ashes from the fire that had burned her life once. She made him look at her, her eyes conveying all her love and pride for him, she threw herself into his arms and hugged him tight as Arnav gathered her close. 
Sakshi who was too shocked at Arnav's outburst and the couple open display of love and solidarity seemed too lost to pick herself off the ground and walk away, Khushi noticed her inability to collect herself and disengaged from Arnav and walked over to Sakshi, she took Sakshi's hand and pulled her up who got up reluctantly, Khushi looked at Sakshi, and the emotion that her eyes held made sakshi recoil, 
It was Pity !! 
Khushi's words were the final nail in her coffin, 
" I don't hold you responsible for your words Sakshi, because whatever you bellowed here, its the thought process of 95% of our society, a girl when she gets molested, she becomes the prime attraction for the masses, 
The media celebrates her brave survival and courage to speak about it. 
The politicians made dramatic statements hoping to win the victim and her family's votes in the next election. 
The law makers debate on the appropriate punishment. 
The human rights activists launch campaigns that claims to be aimed at getting the girl justice but the prime intention is to boost their own images. 
The conservatives  and fundamentalists in the society launch into a debate on the moral ethics of the girl and how she was partly responsible for the crimes committed on her.
The relatives and neighbours first offer their sympathies and then they cut off ties because they don't want their daughter or sister s future of a good marriage to be affected by their alliance with a tainted girl. 
And the parents eventually locks the girl in darkness so that the society forgets the reality that they have a molested child in their house !! 
I was raped Sakshi and I pray everyday that no girl should go through what I and many other girls went through, the utter feeling of helplessness you feel when someone rips through your body while their hands muffle your screams, the terror of being alone and trapped while someone rips away your clothes and puts your modesty naked and bare, the numbness that you feel when one after the other they toy with your body and then they just leave you almost dead, torn and bleeding.
You wont know the horror of it unless you are in that position and God forbid anything should happen to you like that Sakshi.
I have suffered but I am also lucky Sakshi, I am blessed because the Gods gave me a family like Arnav's and a husband like Arnav who treats me like the queen of his heart, I got a chance to live a life knowing all the happiness that a normal girl of my age is entitled to. 
I see myself through his eyes and I know that I am loved and cherished. 
All I will ask you is this, 
Would you feel the same if something like what happened to me would happen to your daughter or sister or friend ?? 
Would you call them tainted and shun them ?? 
What if you had been the one who was harmed ?? 
Would you be able to live with it if the rest of the world shunned you for something in which you were the victim and not the culprit ?? 
Find the answers Sakshi and try to change, our lives are too short and we need to strive each second to be a better person. 
Try to rise above your faults !! 

As for me " , Khushi turned to Arnav and held out her hand which he took, his pride at her words evident, 
"come with me Arnav, Sakshi got what she deserved, but there is someone else who is behind all this mess today and thats my dear step sister, I think its time she got what she deserved." 

FF Our 9 Months - Part 41




Hola Hug

okay as promised am back with an update Wink and yes I am taking a short break because I have my semester exams from Dec10th to Dec21st and I am busy with preps so I wont be able to update in between. plus its Christmas on 25th so I will be spending time with family but I promise I will give you an update for my stories around Xmas as soon as I get free from exams and get down to writing them down Smile 

this update is specially for the munchkin in my life, my lil princess , my adorable lil bacchi Aru Heart its her bday today and this update is specially coz today she was born and ever since then the world hasnt stopped going crazy with her adorable madness !! Heart happy bday love !! 




The last few hours had been nothing short of revelations for the Raizadas and the Guptas, the story Bauji had to tell them was nothing short of the worst shock possible, Khushi  and Payal had wept long hearing about Shyam's treachery , how he had been the cause of their father's health condition, Arnav and Akash were the ones who felt the worst, the crunching feeling of having let down their wives was killing them. But eventually the terrible day had passed, and the silver lining was that Khushi and Payal had got their Bauji back and Shyam's chapter was over once and for all.
But sleep was far away, Anjali watched Dia as she slept in her mother's arms, Varun's words were echoing deep in her heart and she knew he was right, she couldn't deny it either that she had noticed his concern for Dia and her happiness, she knew she could ignore it forever if she pleases to but one day Dia will feel the need for a father, her own father and Chottey or Akash or NK wouldn't be able to fill the space for her. 
But Anjali had faced a betrayal already, that too at the hands of someone who had once professed selfless undying love for her, she couldn't let another betrayal ruin her life, she felt the terrible need to talk to someone and that someone who could understand her was Nani , her mother figure and Anjali decided that she will have a talk with Nani soon, with these thoughts swirling in her head , she drifted off to sleep. 

Meanwhile in another room, NK and Pooja were both beaming with happiness, Pooja's proposal had shocked the hell out of him but before he could reply, they were called out by Akash regarding Bauji's revival, and so they were finally now on their own and NK was only too happy to give a yes to Pooja who by now had turned into a demure shy girl, her earlier boldness which made her propose to him vanishing into thin air and these two were unlike any other love birds, they were crazy and goofy and now they couldn't help smiling and laughing at each other, so amidst a lot of fun and lot of careless whispers, Pooja and NK found their own love nest and they were happy that they had each other !! 
Payal was tired from the day, the events of the day , the emotional stress had her completely knocked out, Akash could see that she was agitated and riled, what she need the most right now was a little time to relax and get her bearings straight. And Akash was more than the perfect husband, he was the perfect friend too, he got dinner into their room and fed her as she ate from his hands, and once she had finished, he made her get fresh and carried her to bed, gently placing her down, and in his arms she slept, as he caressed her forehead, occasionally dropping kisses over her face and hands as she slept deep. 

Varun sat in his room, lost in thought, his outburst on Anjali was totally unintentional, he had never planned to tell her all those things but somehow it had all fallen out and he had no regrets, he knew he had been harsh on her but he knew it was necessary, that was the only way for Anjali to see sense, all her life she had her family who had treated her like a delicate rose, always shielding and protecting her and Varun wanted her to be strong today, he wanted to see her make the best decision for her as well as Dia. 
He knew he would make it upto her once things got sorted between them but till then he decided to be stern on Anjali. 

Meanwhile a lone white SUV was out in the roads with just 2 people in it, the night was cold and chilly but pleasant at the same time, Khushi and Arnav had slipped out after telling Nani that they were going out for a while, Khushi had wanted to go out somewhere alone for sometime, wanting to be alone with Arnav and now they were on the road, the night calm and comforting, he held her hand in his as she stared out of the window, her entire life was getting replayed in her mind, from the time when she was a child till this very instant with her husband, all the memories in a crazy order, some of them making her smile, some of them tearing her heart apart, making her shudder in fear, occasionally a tear or two slipping out.
Arnav drove in silence , he could see the emotions that were raging through Khushi and he didnt want to stop it , he wanted to let it pass, so held her hand in his and soon he was going through the same phase, their lives from the time they can remember till date flashed in front of them and it amazed him to think how far they had come together, and so they drove on mindless of where they are going and eventually came to a stop on a cliff. 
Arnav got out and opened the door for her to come out and they stood there watching the entire city stretch out beneath them, lying calm and quite in the darkness of the night, the stars making the night sky glow, a pale shadow of the moon hovering between the clouds, they stood in silence for long , their arms wrapped around each other and after a while Khushi spoke, 
"so it really is over now ... isnt it Arnav ?? "
Arnav sighed peacefully, after months his heart was finally at peace, they were all safe, Khushi and his babies were safe and everything was looking good for his family, 
"yes princess, finally I feel it in my heart that all the bad times have gone, maybe not for long but I know its gone "
He saw Khushi looking at him curiously, her face innocent like a child and he chuckled, cupping her face in his arms and moving the stray tendrils off her forehead, 
"what I meant is that , in real life problems come and go, its like the tides in the sea, they rise and then they fall, and now they have fallen and there is a peaceful calm in our lives, am sure bad times will come again Khushi, we aren't living in Eden after all , we are in the real world but what I do now is that no matter how many problems come, with you by my side I can face them all and I wont let anything go wrong with you , our children or our families. " 

Khushi smiled a knowing smile that reached his heart, 
" I know Arnav, even before we got married, even before we fell in love, right from the time I fell into your arms at that fateful night in Sheesh Mahal, there was something in your eyes that told me I can trust you, something that drew me towards you no matter how much I resisted. 
Your anger terrified me. 
Your prejudices annoyed me. 
Your hate towards life and love confounded me. 
Your pain tugged my heartstrings. 
Your care and concern hidden beneath your anger pulled me to you like magnets. 
Your love for your family told me that you are a much better person that you let on in the world.

You claimed to hate me but despite that you were always around to the ruthless beast who would save me from any distress or calamity, all the time keeping the facade of the hate mask. 
You were a mystery and I wished to know the real you and today I know you my husband, better than anyone else could ever have known. " 

Arnav leaned forward to rest his head on hers, his fingers tracing her lips, his eyes on hers, 
"you do know me Mrs.Khushi Arnav Singh Raizada.
Oh how happy it makes me Khushi when I call your name along with mine, knowing that you belong to me. 
How much I wanted to make you mine even during the day when I pushed you away.
That night when you first fell into my arms, all I saw was a pair of innocent eyes overwhelmed in shock and fear, your lips quivering and all I wanted was to kiss the fear away from you. 
But then my mind clouded up, screaming that you were there to sabotage my fashion off, paid by my rivals even though my heart screamed your innocence. 
You matched me at every step Khushi, even that night when I broke your dori, you covered yourself by letting out your hair, a single act of defiance and I was shaken at your courage. 
No one had ever withstood my power with the courage you showed me that day. 
You weren't caught up in the power that ASR commanded, you saw me as just another human out there whom you would possible run into .
You fought with me tooth and nail but you never cowered in fear. 
Your helplessness tore at me but my mind wasnt attuned then to see the truth in others, I was always blinded by hate, after all the betrayal and lies I dealt with as a child , I couldn't bring myself to trust anyone except my family.
But you broke through all the walls I had built, I was drawn to you like a moth to a flame but my mind repelled you equally, I wanted to be near you , I craved to feel the same love and warmth that others got from you but at the same time I wanted to prove to myself that you are just as bad as the rest of the world. 
Love and hate were on conflict inside me Khushi and I struggled to live with it, you were the symbol of my inner turmoil. 
You were like the force of the nature jolting me awake, making me come face to face with reality, telling me that the world isnt always bad, that love did exist, you were assaulting me with the every emotions that I had tried so hard to deny myself !! 
It was a long battle Khushi, a struggle where I made you suffer though I wanted to suffer in your pain along with you, absorb all your anguish even though it was me who made you cry.
And today we are here, all the evil erased without a trace, its our world now Khushi, our small haven and its perfect now. 
I love you Khushi , my hearts beats only for you. " 

And they hugged each other, feeling each other's touch, they didnt feel the need to waste words anymore, their life had passed the cross-roads and now a new happy ever after was waiting for them, testing times could come and go but they knew they had each other forever. 

Arnav took Khushi and made her sit in the backseat of the car and got in with her, for some reason neither of them wanted to go back home just yet, they were enjoying the silence of the night, the feeling of being all on their own while the rest of the world around them slept, he sat there staring into her eyes for long , and then he was kissing her , softly at first, gradually increasing the pace, gentle yet hard , demanding and giving, the kiss just like any other they have shared yet it felt all new. 
And they sat there, talking like any other normal couple, carefree and happy, not worrying about any more problems, they talked long, occasionally Khushi would drift off to sleep and Arnav would kiss her awake, but as she slept he felt their babies moving around inside her, kicking away to glory and Arnav couldn't help but chuckle at the thought that their kids would be such annoying tykes who would make Khushi run a mile, just like him !! 
His heart swelling with love and pride for the woman who could love him and their children endless, her face glowing with happiness even in her sleep. 
The night waned , they hadn't slept a proper sleep and neither wanted it, they had a spend a blissful night watching the stars shine bright, then turning wane as the early morning sky took over, happily enjoying their babies stomping around inside Khushi, occasionally stealing kisses from each other, indulging each other in passionate caresses, never being able to get enough, need to feel each other skin to skin. 
And now they watched with a content smile on their faces at the breaking dawn, the early rays slowly filling up and spreading light, as the sun rose bright and happy, a symbol of a new day and new start to their lives bringing with it only happiness.